mood:

I came back with tired legs (very weird) & a queasy mind.
Deviance paper was very predictable mmhmm.

Except for the 2nd qn, dey didn't really hint what was going on for the compulsory..apart from the fact my tutor keeps saying must know limitations & read readings to noe wad each contributor is trying 2 address..
soO i guess tt's the hint for the 1st qn & i wrote it that way.

omg & that was the longest paper i've written in my whole life.
becos of that i'm only left with 45mins for my 2nd qn.
zZz..apparently i heard alot of pple saying dey didn't have time for their 2nd qn to write a good proper essay.
Me toO; it was just a brief over...
and at the back of my head I kept thinking abt the exam tip that if u find urself repeating your answers again...smth is wrong.

omg. that was what was happening. some parts were inevitable that i had to repeat. i really wish i didn't interpret my 1st qn wrongly sObx...or else 60marks will fly out of the window~

Ratings for the paper: 7.5/10 for its predictability & rather straightforwardness

alrite 1 down 4 to go!
as long as this saturday's over, I can heave a little sigh of relief.
But before this sat comes, i have to overcome zillion obstacles..
cOs i'm pretty scared of my psy paper..ack.

oOkie jiayOu!

i declare WARRRRR!!!!!!!
only after I have a good sleep & good lunch tomorrow.

Mood: +

u all say i always post other pple's pictures..
i shall put my own this time! lOlx.

This is one of the soft toys on my bed, Pudding.
it's soO big i can only fit its head lOlx.

My table @ one of its neatest state...
loOk @ the no. of pens I use!
All 'smiles!' for tml's paper: deviance


Have to enlarge this:
look @ the eyebags & the tiredness of the eyes...
as result of sleeping till 1+am every nite..yes yes!

omgg..
freak.
i wish exams are over soon.

mood:

oh god.
i just watched 2 johnny depp + tim burton films in a row..
Sweeney Todd & Edward Scissorhands.

goshh..*dreams*
johnny depp is so scarily charismatic in both roles..
He's the freakish sadistic monster in 1 and innocently cute but dangerous boy in the other..
such warped roles. but he makes people fall in love with him still.
i guess pple got reasons to like him in edward cos he's really angel.
But to like sweeney todd is kinda hard to do cos that person is the meanest & most sadistic person in the whole world...but then he looks extremely alluring at times in the film.

Strangely after watching all these movies, i find his character Jack Sparrow the most 'uncharming' one lOlx.
Mayb cos he's too much of a comic.

I prefer dark & slightly eccentric johnny depp.

Sweeney Todd to me was actually a sweet but sad love story.
i think i'm going crazy to call tt movie sweet & sad *bangs head*

kinda prefer him now to last time..
his features look kinda plainer in edward scissorhands (apart from the fact his face is totally white & his lips were black)

I'm going to catch up with Big Fish next (sadly no jOhnny depp -_-''')

Five Cent Drift Wood from chervil on Comiqs
Was testing out my comiqs ..i see i see!
Guess i'll be using it more often when i need 2 place pictures..
or else take up alot of space.

BTW, this was my Taiwan trip in 2005 (gosh tt's 3 yrs ago)
It's the 5cent Driftwood restaurant..it was really memorable.
Shld visit if u go taiwan..
The place is made of wood & glass & dey serve very delicious foOd (things u won't get to eat anywhere else; not even in taiwan~)

oOkies.
ahHHH..
the break week is almost over.
I'm kinda in this messed up disoriented moOd..
if i dun take advantage of the time to do everything, i'll be letting myself & the past few mths down ack.
yet the brain & the heart doesn't mOve tt way..ahHHh.

getting better marks for my assignments this time round is making things more stressed than it used to be.
similarly getting lous marks oso equally stressed.
Whatever the circumstances are, it'll always be stress.

*cools*
*faints*

mood:

omg. FREAK.
I wore my black plastic flats i bought ytd..
i tot i took all the necessary precautions (like putting sillicon sponge @ the right places)...
but i died walking today.

Bought my tights finally!
i was contemplating for the past few weeks whether I was ready for it..
but i bought it anyway cos i wanna wear it when I go holiday & cos my feet hurts like mad..
now i have four pairs of flats (black 1 out liaO cos it gives me hell, left with the furry bubblegum pink, blood red & white pointed slingback; strap behind heel)

Pls give me suggestions which suits best (or is okie) wearing with the black tights (tights: like stockings but more opaque, covers your feet & toes)

even the fashion guru needs help sometimes.
I do have my disaster moments like wad vicki says my sleep attire (lacy purple dress with my furry bubblegum pink flats)...and i look like I just came out of bed with shawn .

It was a total insult (cos shawn was wearing some over over sized shirt, ugly shorts & rough sandals..showing off his hairy x10 legs)...lOlx.

Main highlight:
Had Buddha Jump Over The Wall (my very 1st time) @ Spring Court. Let the pics do the wow-ing~!


My brother & my father~
Wow factor: 2/10 lOlx.

The Buddha Jump Over the Wall
Wow factor: 5/10
The First Layer..OMG (tt's scallops, abalones, shark's fin)
Wow Factor: 7/10
The First Layer up close in my bowl~~
Wow Factor: 9/10
Had to eat shark's fin with chopsticks & the abalone was so succulent.
Broth was amazing~
The Second Layer- Sea Cucumber, Wild Mushroom, Fish Stomach
Wow Factor: 8/10
To me, the broth @ the 2nd layer tastes the best (yes, each layer the broth taste slightly different..tt is really coOl.)
The Wild Mushroom was the size of my palm!
Sea Cucumber was almost as thick as the laptop charger~

Third & Last Layer: Chicken Thigh & Trotters Tendon
Wow Factor: 6/10
Soup is hottest at the bottom..
Chicken Thigh was rather silky & smooth..
My first time eating trotter's tendon..soO yea was quite surprised i could bite it off easily by bits (usually tendons are harder to chew).

My Favourite Chinese Dish: Peking Duck
Wow Factor: 8/10

And what you see comes to $700. o.O

Bought a tv after all that (I think we're crazy)
But it was a worth buy!!!!
42 inch LG Full HD.

And because of this, I have treat for 1 friend here.
Cos I got 3 complimentary night safari tix! (that includes me & nadya who booked it cos i accidentally slip it out of my mouth & someone else.)

Tix includes admission & tram ride worth $32!
Hurry~~~

mood:

hehehe...
finally!

was rather sad when everyone got their big 'A' moment and i didn't except for my soci assignment A- (which was only 10% soO not counted)

am so happy this week gt 2As..
1 from my social psy project (25%)
and the other from my psy assignment (30%)

both came as shocks to me.
i rmbed the psy assignment i was crossing my fingers in front of the Ivle webpage when it was loading the gradebook...I didn't want it to be a B- or anything below (becos i scored badly for my mid term)

and the social psy one me and john were like "wth is going on" when jia hao was flipping through the evaluations and laughing all the way this morning.
lOlx.

As don come often for me so I treasure every moment ( I may keep & file up all my A work as a memory)..
am waiting for my deviance proj & emotions assignment..

I won't expect As again esp. for deviance becos my tutor herself is a tough nut to crack & she mentioned some parts about the proj & then she mentioned "Tattoo" oso which made me go o.O uh oh.

I'm hoping I can get them back as soon as possible esp my emotions one cos it's a open boOk exam..gahHh.
thank god tho becos I have that exam & psy on the same day.
If it's closed book, I think I'll die horribly..
Psy alone is enough to kill me (I was rather frustrated studying psy earlier on becos I was a lil distracted & even went to buy 'Mug Root Beer' to inspire mugging (yeu ai's idea lOlx).

Apart from academic As, I got to see my 'A' candies toO on my last day of school...soO lucky lOlx.
Candy A seemed so far away (in fact this is only the 2nd time I see in this semester...the 1st time was becos I was stunned by this guy who could pull off skinny jeans well (cos he was tall & lanky).

Candy B is a skinny jean puller toO (fairer, lean and perhaps slightly taller).
Candy B will look good in electric blue i tot...and he actually wore electric blue today omg.
and he seemed friendly & nice to his tutorial mates.

Wad's this thing about skinny jeans?
Dunno I guess i like people who are tall & has nice legs; Candy B fits the bill perfectly and has potential to be stylish (like you can dress him up & he'll look good in anything).

*nod nod*
i bet some of you are rolling your eyes lOlx.

Was digging up old artistes!
I didn't noe they sang the mandarin version until like now -_-'''

mood:

gahhh..
i shall just keep this short & sweet..
really tired from all the typing of my emotion readings..i could almost memorise them (haha i wish)

thank you for giving me a little glimmer of light at the end of the dark dark tunnel...
was glad I finally see effort in Psy.
Nevertheless, I still remain negative about it. arghX.

Nothing much abt my personal life to add today apart from the fact i reached home @ 1pm today! woOhoOs!!!
am glad didn't have to stay in school until 8pm for mondays..
it's the last monday anyway..some kind of reward~
I feel fat from the oily chicken rice & choc ice cream~

Oh. and my brother's been cooking tea eggs (failed attempt).
The colour, smell, texture all there but the taste (ohhh a tad too bland).
If I'm the egg, I would've fainted from the boiling & re boiling & re re boiling & well u noe for the past 2-3days..

Alright on to Love part 4:
BLAME IT ON THE WOMAN, or so some of them say..

It's the woman that cause marriage these days to be so warped & fragile.
Hmpf. I read it with discontempt.
Oh really? Because ours is a patriarchal society so it's conveniently the modern woman's fault?

According to them, women's entry into workforce cause a disruption in the gendered division of labour (who brings the bread, who makes the bread)..
Here's the process:

Disruption--> traditional norms going down the drain--> Used to be fine, rather happy & peaceful conventional marriage has broken down --> increase in divorce rate--> thanks to women!

It suddenly reminds me of the time when my psy tutor remarked on some comment written on the Tok Cock board (guess some of u heard it)..

The guy wrote: "I don't understand why some girls have to wear makeup to school!"
My tutor said to us: "Well this is the modern woman so you have to live with it! By the way, she's also not wearing your makeup, why do you have to care?!"

What a modern man. Funny too.hahas.

Back to the issue:

When will marriage ever be equal? In fact, it was stated with the wife bringing the bacon home too, it cause more inequality than ever to the r/s (seems very unfair to us women cause we get blamed for every change sObx)..

What makes it so difficult is the growing idea of wanting intimacy & mutual understanding in r/s. When 2 parties are working together only to realize his/her own self, things will never work out amicably. The realization of self through r/s & marriages inserts more self-centeredness than it used tobe when the traditional man work to keep the family alive & the woman work to keep the family healthy.

Now both are wealthy, personal issues like "Who am I? What do i want out of this r/s" start seeping in which results into more troubles~

mood:

A thought (read with an open mind & heart):

Why is God's love agapic (selfless love bestowed becos of what he/ she is rather than what he/ shee has) and ours can't be?

Because God does not live in our world.
Our world: competitive, capitalist, consumerism.
The use of love, the exchange of commodities makes it so hard for our love to be selfless & always giving. Love in society will always be compared to, compared with and has qualities (be it economic/ moral/ cultural) that we will attribute to in a partner.

Why then do some people rather love God than humans themselves?

Because God is able to give selfless love that humans for those reasons can't. People will be seeking for that type of 'love' where pple do not weigh costs & benefits (because without dreams, sometimes we're unable to carry on with lives/ live life happily). Thus, pple 'escape' to the love God provides: a utopia/ dream that we escape from our world of materialism and realism.

God's love is enough for us.

God's love is enough because unlike humans, God's love is well rounded and perfect (so much so it doesn't exist here). We cannot compare a human with a god. It is therefore biased to say that statement when two individuals are totally different~

In conclusion: Religion is an utopia where people can escape from their world. The purpose of religion is for people to believe life always has hope. Without religion, some people will become disillusioned/ lose purpose in life.

P.S.: I'm not suffering from some post blues/ post depression. lOlx.
Nor am i against religion. And i only start writing all these becos of the words 'agapic love'.

mood:

Sample:

aloysius from chervil on Comiqs

OMG this is a good way of publishing & organizing photos..
thanks shiyun! hahas..

mood:

you know what?
out of the 3 very eligible bachelors, i'm probably going to pick soci in the end.
"SEE!" pple could've said.

people realise dey like someone more than the other when tt person keeps popping up in his/ her mind.
it's the same here.
soci keeps popping up in my mind more often than psy or nm..
but tt's kinda biased cos i'm taking 3 soci mods & 1 psy & nm mod each.

Then i was thinking of possible job options..zZz.
i even tot about SDU @ one pt in time when my lecturer said tt institution isn't helping things..the prob isn't just matchmaking pple to create babies..it's so much more. so i tot maybe dey didn't hire any sociologists.
lOlx.

I even told my 2216 mod fren that if it hadn't been the job prospects hindering my decision, I would've decided my major eons ago.
But unfortunately, it's the biggest and most impt drawback as well.

i forgot who told me to declare two majors (take higher level mods & see how) so i still have time to decide on the ultimate major & change the other into a minOr.
if it's smth possible, i may since i'm rather undecided.

Hmm i guess i'm nt ready to commit to anything.
ahhHHhhHH!
i wonder how pple can decide wad they wanna do the minute the step into NUS...how is it possible when u've nt taken it before in ur life?
Maybe i'm expecting more..expecting to be passionate about every bit of wad i've taken (rather than just tolerate those i dun really like)

After all, it's smth i promised myself.
To be passionate about the major since this is one of the 1st chances I could ever decide on smth solely by myself.

mood:

no my life isn't sweet & rosy.
i'm trying to manage my emotions!
ahHHHH...okie it's nt that bad.
*counts counts* i am suffering frm alot of problems lately.

1st there's my bowel prob (doc said it's most likely an anal tear..no detection of pus or whatsoever).
2nd: my bleeding gum (treatment pending)
3rd: nightmares!!!
4th: Dry & scaly skin that peels & peels (and part of me did the peeling too)
5th: Acne problem at forehead and temples (am working on it)
6th: tummy is increasingly going to be like roti prata (malleable and flabby...am not working on but wishing it'll somehow reduce itself. lOlx.)
7th: worser face skin condition (am counteracting by trying 2 sleep by 12am instead of 1+am...but has been unsuccessful. I must this time.)

oh and my tagboard still has blue words..
cbox is giving me probs soo have 2 wait till it's colour compatible~

in addition gonna post some of my self invented stuff.
e.g.: walking fashion disaster (i call it time bomb)
e.g.: sees someone wearing horribly (blindness to the eyes)
e.g.: hears someone singing terribly (disaster to the ears)

5 weird things abt myself (weird as in things u dun see/ observe/ anything in other pple only urself):
a) I like to eat tuna sashimi becos of its colour.
b) I like pink but i dun wear pink. I tried and i almost vomitted lOlx..it's toO barbie!
c) I hate gray but i own 4 pieces of gray
d) I get hysterical/ violent/ agitated when someone touches my pillow/ sleep on it/ accidentally sit on it. REALLY.
e) I always have to burp after eating (no matter wad i ate/ how much i ate/ how fast i ate...i guess it's cos i dun have a slow speed for eating lOlx.)
--> however, i do drink like a snail. irony lolx.

Ok. if u can tink of 5 weird things abt urself. pls share! hahas.

mood:

In my second excerpt on love (didn't intend until i read my soci psy book lOlx.), we shall explore the dimension of love in a social psy way.

mhMm...i hope pple are reading my blog cos apparently it's written for myself & others out there too. even diaries are commercialized these days bleahX.

soO we have 2 theories of love: John Lee & Robert Sternberg.
According to John Lee, there're 3 primary style of love: Eros, Ludus & Storge (stor-gay)

Eros: passionate love like 'love @ first sight'
Ludus: playful love. love as game
Storge: Companionship, peaceful & steady; found in family & friendship.

Of course, we don't just purely love pple based on these. We mix & match them lOlx.

Secondary styles:
Mania: combi of eros & ludus. Mania lovers need to be reassured that they are loved and often hold themselves back, afraid they love too much without equal returns. Mania lovers actually do not really love the person but 'in love with love itself'.

Pragma: ludus + storge. Practical approach hence the word 'pragma'. who is compatible in terms of interests, backgrounds, attitudes etc. e.g. of pragma lovers: matchmaking love, computer dating.

Agape: eros + storge, love promoted by christianity. Selfless & giving.This kind of love is very rare and according to Lee, pple who prefer this style re prob. practicising celibacy (like nuns) and do not have lover/mate.

And of course, we do not remain in the same style forever. Also, people who prefer a certain style would remain in a longer r/s with pple who subscribe to the same kind. So choose wisely! lOlx.

oOkies Robert Sternberg's Love as 3 main components (which we all have already known): initmacy, passion & commitment. Here he combines these components into 8 subsets of love..mhmm...

Intimacy: feeling of closeness & connection
Passion: "chemistry"
Commitment: Maintenance of r/s

So when we say "i love you" to frens / family members it's ok, there's after all 8 different types of love! lOlx.

1. Nonlove: Acquaintanceship
2. Liking: high intimacy but low passion & commiment. Friendship.
3. Infatuation: High passion but low intimacy & commiment. ' Love @ first sight'.
4. Empty love: High commitment but low/ absent intimacy & passion. Possible is marriage cos of kids and cos of religious reasons
5. Romantic love: P+I but no C. High school romances
6. Companionate love: I+C but no P. Married ones who no longer hav passionate sex but enjoy company.
7. Fatuous love: C+P but no I. Meet & marry within few weeks
8. Consummate love: C+P+I. Very difficult to achieve & maintain.

Conclusion: Love exists in every second of our lives. And often, pple break up due to many reasons.However, it is nt tt they don't love each other anymore (they didn't realise this..i didn't either) it is more of incompatibility in love styles & the kind of love they attribute themselves to when in that r/s. Once it's absent, we assume love is gone too~

Hope this blog entry gets you thinking~!

mood:

went out wif my mum today.
purpose to do facial.
Had mushroOm pot for lunch..
hmMM...altho i didn't get to eat the hotpot *sObx...the smell almost killed me!*, i had seafoOd ramen set tgt with fried mushroOm & mushroOm appetizer (didn't manage to take photo cos i ate it before realising...human instinct) but if u like thai style appetizer, this one's smth like it.

looks like fried pancakes. dip with mayonnaise

SeafoOd ramen (with 6-7types of wild mushroOm..oiiissshhi!)

Ratings: 7/10 for the appetizer & the many kinds of mushrooms

Had facial..
oOo. fascinating as always...
and it's so comfortable i always almost doze off.

They have this Russian device which helps to clean up pores & stuff..
then another smth like a warm pad placed under the body to 'recharge' our body cells.
And there's the hot mask which is applied on top of thin gauze like cloth which is placed on the face..makes u feel more refreshed.
and there's 2 essential oils applied on my face, toner, essence blahx.

The best thing abt Spa is tt dey hav really nice tranquil environments that make u wanna fall asleep & they have tea & snack after everything..
i always think abt eating ack.

Anyway she shared wif me a couple tips like camomile essential oil helps acne & to eat a RED apple before breakfast to cleanse toxin..
of course lots & lots of water as always. I lack that hehx.

bought 1 dress + 3 belts.
i noe the belts part are overrated
but i just love those belt..
and no matter how tight my jeans are, i always need belts ahahs...
soO i got a silver, electric blue & white one. hehe.

Mood:

Just watched finish an anime..
omg soO sad.
it's abt a group of destructive, sadistic children who with their extraordinary powers able to exterminate mankind.
and all they want is someone who really loves them, cares for them & not betray them..
They just want to be accepted like normal human beings.

omg in the end the father carry his daughter and exploded themselves.
And another teenage girl after bidding farewell to the boy (he's normal) she likes, she went to send herself for slaughter (standing there letting the special forces kill her without retaliating and despite being one of the most powerful ones).

soO ironic to watch such anime after writing in my social psy assignment abt negative effects of media portraying nudity & violence.

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qinqi* bubbles
kitsOn/ kitty
jeslin/ buttercup
aslany
sOn shahidan
jay
eunice/ braces!
vanessa/ v.t
jessie
vanessa chue
shiyun
jiaying
wan wen
shawn
vicki
jianwei
choon peng
jiun kit/ scuter
weitai
Felicia Chin
samantha
yonghan/ frankie
yanling/ hippo dinosaur
taffy
vivien
aloysius
hikoto
jason

Day by day:

you know i'll be there

hoo la la

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